From my point of view

…varza. Desi n-o spun prea des (sau n-o recunosc), de data asta sunt coplesita de senzatie. Varza de oboseala. Ea a invins de data asta. Eu, mi-am format prostul obicei (sau bunul in opinia catorva persoane) de a dormi cel putin 8-9 ore pe noapte. Irelevant la cat adorm, important e sa ma trezesc eu, fara interventia alarmei. Ei bine… In dimineata asta n-a fost sa fie. Dupa ce ma bag azi-noapte in pat pe la 1.30, imi dau ceasul cu o ora inainte, si brusc se face 2.30 (cea mai scurta ora din viata mea), bineinteles n-adorm imediat, ultima data uitandu-ma la ceas undeva pe la 3.45… Bun… Dimineata (adica cateva ora mai tarziu) suna ceasul. Ora 8.30 (dupa ora noua, si inainte de ora 9). Ma trezesc… cam zombi ce-i drept, si-mi incep tabieturile. Astept ce astept si hotarasc sa iau destinul in propriile maini. Ies din casa, 45 minute mai tarziu intru in casa, 15 minute mai tarziu iar ies, 4 ore mai tarziu din nou intru (devin obscena?). Si uite asa, acum stau pe scaunul asta (care pana acum parea numai bun, acum parca s-a micsorat, sau poate imi trebuie mie un pat) si analizez. Ciudat e faptul ca nu analizez ce s-a intamplat ci ce se va intampla in saptamana care urmeaza. Ma mut. Nu numai eu, dar si eu si o sa fie o saptamana luuungaaa (iar devin obscena, nu-i asa?). Punct si de la alt capat.

It’s the chance of life, get ready, set, fly high.
But the fear of your mind, go for it.
It’s hit or miss, too late for you to quit.
You gotta show ‘em how bad you really want this, so…

Live your dream, it’s not as hard as it may seem.
You gotta work together, dream, on hopes that you will seem,
From your fears, you have to win yourself.
It’s all or nothing, if you’re everything…

Are what you believe, you got to bring the dreams.
Set the pace, competitions take the lead.
This is it, all eyes on you.
So stay on point and prove,
that you deserve whats long overdue.

Live your dream, it’s not as hard as it may seem.
You gotta work together, dream, on hopes that you will seem,
From your fears, you have to win yourself.
It’s all or nothing, if you’re everything…

The hardest to recovery,
From the heartache of another kind,
I’m still drying my tears.
Getting over my own fears in my life.
So I wanna make sure this time that I’m strong enough,
To give it my all…

Live your dream, it’s not as hard as it may seem.
You gotta work together, dream, on hopes that you will seem,
From your fears, you have to win yourself.
It’s all or nothing, if you’re everything…

Live your dream, it’s not as hard as it may seem.
You gotta work together, dream, on hopes that you will seem,
From your fears, you have to win yourself.
It’s all or nothing, if you’re everything…

Live your dream, it’s not as hard as it may seem.
You gotta work together, dream, on hopes that you will seem,
From your fears, you have to win yourself.
It’s all or nothing, if you’re everything…

So you gotta live your dreams,
So don’t you be afraid.
Just set the pace, and take the lead,
It’s your time to shine.

Listen to Athena Cage - All Or Nothing (Save The Last Dance SoundTrack)

You make me sick
I know i feel you
that’s why we guys stick together,
Yeah, yeah, yeah
I know

You make me sick
I want you and I’m hatin’ it
Got me lit like a candlestick
Get too hot when you touch the tip,
I’m feelin’ it, I gotta getta grip
And it’s drivin me crazy
baby don’t you quit
Can’t get enough of it
You got me goin’ again
Baby, you got me goin’ again
You make me sick…

He was doing 8-0 on the freeway
In the 6 double O, bumpin’ Isley
He was gettin’ kinda close, kinda touch-ay
Cuz he had a little too much Hennessey
He told me that he wanna go home,
with me up on the hill to my condo
Told me he would keep it all on the low-low
But I told him, “boo, I don’t really know though”…

He got closer to me…it started gettin’ deep
He had me in a zone when he started to show me things
I never saw before
Baby was smooth but I knew it was game
Hell-of-a-cool but you men are the same
The way he licked his lips and touched my hips
I knew that he was slick…

You make me sick
I want you and I’m hatin’ it
Got me lit like a candlestick
Get too hot when you touch the tip,
I’m feelin’ it, I gotta getta grip
And it’s drivin me crazy baby don’t you quit
Can’t get enough of it
You got me goin’ again
Baby, you got me goin’ again
You make me sick…

In the 6 now, so hot
Gotta pull all the windows down
Eyes lead and I’m thinkin’ bout the sheets now
Wonderin’ really should I take it there now
He told me he would make it worth it
Again, how many times have I heard this
Kinda funny, but I wasn’t even nervous
Well his slick-ass lines were kinda working…

I felt my knees get weak…his body was callin’ me
Just couldn’t take the heat
Anyway it was 2 or 3, I had to get off the streets
Baby was cool but I knew it was game
Said, he was too schooled to be screamin’ my name
Even though we made the best of it
I still told him this…

You make me sick
I want you and I’m hatin’ it
Got me lit like a candlestick
Get too hot when you touch the tip,
I’m feelin’ it, I gotta getta grip
And it’s drivin me crazy baby don’t you quit
Can’t get enough of it
You got me goin’ again
Baby, you got me goin’ again
You make me sick…

Hmmm yeah

You make me sick
I want you and I’m hatin’ it
Got me lit like a candlestick
Get too hot when you touch the tip,
I’m feelin’ it, I gotta getta grip
And it’s drivin me crazy baby don’t you quit
Can’t get enough of it
You got me goin’ again
Baby, you got me goin’ again
You make me sick…

I want you and I’m hatin’ it
Got me lit like a candlestick
Get too hot when you touch the tip,
I’m feelin’ it, I gotta getta grip
And it’s drivin me crazy baby don’t you quit
Can’t get enough of it
You got me goin’ again
Baby, you got me goin’ again
You make me sick…

(You make me sick)
I want you and I’m hatin’ it
Hot when you touch the tip,
I’m feelin’ it, I gotta getta grip
And it’s drivin me crazy baby don’t you quit

Can’t..no no no no no
Oh, you make me sick
I want you and I’m hatin’ it
And I’m hatin’ it

Listen to Pink - You Make Me Sick (Save The Last Dance - SoundTrack)

Mda… De cand ma stiu am fost ambitioasa, am terminat intotdeauna un lucru inceput, ba chiar mai mult, l-am terminat cu succes. Niciodata nu m-am oprit in mijlocul drumului, si am preferat intotdeauna sa sacrific ceva pentru a-mi atinge telul, decat sa renunt la el. Azi in schimb… Desi nu-s genul,am vrut sa renunt. Sa ma dau jos din masina si sa spun “Pana aici am platit”. Nu-mi sta in fire sa cedez nervos, de cele mai multe ori strang din dinti si incep sa fredonez o melodie in minte, ceva de genul “Poti sa vorbesti in continuare”, dar azi aproape ca mi-au “crapat” dintii. Mi s-a intors stomacul pe dos si am simtit nevoia sa fac ceva. Asa ca am baga piciorul in aceleratie si am schimbat viteza. Oare tot ati trecut prin sentimentul de “Renunt!” cand a fost vorba de scoala de soferi? Numai bine ca prin orice as trece eu raman aceeasi, cel putin in esenta. Nu-mi placea sofatul dar intre timp l-am indragit, si chiar daca am avut o tentativa de a “ma lasa”, o voi lasa in stadiul de tentativa. Deci nu-s genul, asa ca voi continua…

Fiind perfect constienta de anotimpul in care suntem, de cel care nici n-a trecut prea bine, dar mai ales de cel care urmeaza, imi permit sa spun “Vreau sa vina iarna!”. Stiu ca tocmai a trecut, dar pur si simplu imi lipseste. Atmosfera sarbatorilor n-o prea simt, si nici nu ma dau in vant dupa haine groase, dar momentul in care stii ca esti la munte, departe de tot ceea ce inseamna oras, departe de aerul din ce in ce mai respirat, pe mine cel putin ma incanta. Sunt nebuna sau nu… sa zicem ca multi din ceea ce ma cunosc pot raspunde la intrebarea asta, dar fiecare are dreptul la o preferinta, si multi isi neaga acest drept. Pfff… o dau in altele. Ideea esentiala ar fi ca ma ingrozeste gandul ca vine vara, cu tot cu caldura ei. Greu de lucrat, greu de dormit, greu de mers pe strada, la munte cald, la mare cald, orice ai face pentru a scapa de caldura faci in van. Azi, cand am iesit din bloc, am simtit un aer rece dar nu mirosea deloc a iarna. Nea… A trecut. Doar iarna.